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My heart is beating fast
My chest feels like it's being crushed
The need to do something is overwhelming.

To beat the walls with my fists
Tear things apart with my teeth
Scream until I have no voice.

Crush things beneath my feet
Rip my hair out
Cry until it hurts enough to forget.

Forget the world
All the problems
And the people.

Smash my most prized possessions
Curse in a never ending string
Hate everything and everyone near me.

Run until my legs give out
Beating the ground with my open hands
Laughing at how badly it hurts still.

I can't write, I only rip the pages.
I can't sing, I have no voice.
I can't sleep, I'm to afraid of what I'll see.

I can't tell you,
I don't know how to
Phrase my pain so you will care. 

My hands shake
My vision blurs
Losing sight of everything that matters.

I want to let go of it all
Just to fly
Away from this feeling.

But it holds tight to my neck
Assuring me it is here to stay.
Nothing I can do will work.
I get this feeling a lot I don't know what causes it. It's not the same as one of my panic attacks.. It's like an attack of emotions. So many that I don't know what to do as Rage is the highest ranking of emotions I break things. Being physically hurt often causes it to.. numb a bit. So that's probably why I hit things and react the way I do. And why I turned to self harm before to help cope.

I hope you liked it.
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EmChompski Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014
You literally just described how I feel sometimes.
;w; beautifully written
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Sammylovesyoulots Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Student Writer
Glad to know I'm not alone. Thank you for the favorite ^_^
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PurpleRayRomeo Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful, hang on in there <3
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Sammylovesyoulots Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Student Writer
I plan to. Thank you <3
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givemeyourscars Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I like the desperation you've used ending this! It's as you said, being hurt by someone or something is always a hard crack to heal. And you captured it excellently!
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Sammylovesyoulots Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you it means a lot. Sometimes it's impossible to just feel okay. The hurt can just become overwhelming.
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givemeyourscars Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I know the pain well, trust me. I think it helps building off that darkness to pour out your feelings on paper, but it all works differently for everyone. Just know if you ever care to talk, I'm here for an extra ear. Sometimes we just need to vent!
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Sammylovesyoulots Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Student Writer
Creativity is an amazing outlet for me. Thank you ^_^ and yes sometimes we all do.
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givemeyourscars Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Isn't it for us all! :)
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