Sammylovesyoulots

I feel like I grew up too fast Now maturity is expected of me However I don't feel ready What if I want to be a stupid kid? Let me fuck up, Maybe get a little fucked up Nothing too crazy Not a lot of trouble Just have some fun I know it might sound like a bit much I just wish I felt happy being alive I'm too afraid to even try

Why won't he hold my hand?

If in my few years of life I can give you one Single Tiny piece of advice,It would be to learn how to say no. Not just no. But No. Mean it, Scream it! Take it from someone who lets it weakly fall from their lips Hesitant. So many problems, Hard times, Sad times. Could have been avoided. Say no when you mean it. No to that friend, No to the stranger, No to that one guy, or girl. Their anger or bruised ego Is nothing. You matter more than one moment of joy for them.

New starts, new beginnings The year of change. Growing up feels exhilarating New freedoms, New fears. Yet I'm a creature of habit; Reminiscing over the old. Trying to both step forwards And not move at all. I can't do both; And I can't stay here. So the new it is then I just hope some of the old follows.

I want to get high                                                     h Not high                       g                    i     But   h Climb with me till breathing is hard My body trembling in fear Let me stand on the edge Looking down on the small world we think is so big Let me throw my hands out, let my hair down Feel the rain and wind beat against me I just need to get high and feel alive Before I let you push me over the edge I want everything to feel real again, not this inbetween daze Feeling like I'm never awake but sleep evades me. What is real anymore? I'm not, I don't think I am. But are you?

love being able to dream again.

I just had a dream A dream in which I died. You and I were standing Hand in hand Kissing while on the tracks I thought it was sweet. Then I heard it coming, The train vibrating the tracks, I went to move but you told me to stay Fear flooded me, eyes widening. You whispered, ever so softly "Don't you trust me?" Holding me closer Eyes never leaving mine. Nodding I cling to you for hope. And when you chose to move You brought me with you, I knew I could trust you. But I slipped Landing half on the tracks Train so close I could feel the warmth of it's light. You tried saving me But everything when black. The last thing I saw was you reach

I miss you Seeing you and feeling like I'm walking on ice I never know when I'll fall in. I can't say too much, but neither can you Without the ice cracking more. What happened? What do we do now?

I'm tired of hiding behind a lie I'm sorry I couldn't tell you I know you asked me out of love But it's hanging in the air between us Even if you didn't notice. I'm sorry I lied to you I'm sorry I can't be honest. It's best I handle this alone.